Friday, 14 August 2026

I am neurodivergent. But of course!

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While I find it hard to see myself back in full-time employment, as an employee that is, any time soon — if ever — every so often I see a job vacancy that piques my interest.

Image shows some of the questions asked on the Disability Questionnaire section in a BBC job application.
Most of these questions require more than a simple yes or no answer.
And if the application process is not too tedious, I'll apply. My guiding motto in such cases, particularly in relation to journalism and media gigs, is that it's better to be a known unwanted than an unknown unwanted. I used to say loser instead of unwanted, but I now think that's a bit too harsh. Just because somebody doesn't want me, this doesn't make me a loser, does it?

Truth presenter

With that in mind, I figured I might as well let Human Resources at BBC Radio 5 Live know that I'm willing to be considered for the role of Chief Presenter currently being advertised. Were the station looking for just a mere presenter, I may not have bothered applying. I'm above such mediocrity at this stage.

As it is with many major employers these days, the initial application has to be made online via the BBC's own career portal. Having used this portal before for previous applications, details such as my employment history are already saved to my profile.

Normally, the only fields that require attention are questions related to the specific job being advertised at the time. In this latest case, one is probably expected to give a different answer as to why one is suitable to be a Chief Presenter as opposed to why one would make a good Presenter. 'I perform better when I'm overpaid and underworked' is my approach to the former.

Also falling under the BBC's job-specific questions are those related to a candidate's socio-economic background, health and wellbeing. I guess it makes sense. One's health and wellbeing between job applications could take a turn for the worse. Or for the better. (The BBC calls it a Disability Questionnaire but, as we'll see, that's a debatable title.)

'Does a gentle but rather annoying years-long pain where my left leg meets my buttocks count? It is a pain in the arse anyway.'

Nonetheless, it's almost as if these questions are included as nothing more than a box-ticking exercise. There's no scope to go into greater detail. It's like somebody asking you how you are when they actually couldn't care less. They certainly wouldn't want to get a truthful reply.

Differently abled

For example, there's the statement 'I am neurodivergent' to which one is obliged to respond. Like all the others in this section, it can only be answered with either 'yes' or 'no'. My preferred answer would be 'Yes, but it depends what you mean exactly.' We're all neurodivergent, aren't we? What's neurotypical, after all?

Then there's 'I have a learning disability: yes or no?' Well, I probably do. For one, I often think I'm a slow learner. Or I certainly wish I could read faster and still retain much of the information in the process. That I can't do so is something I consider a disability, particularly when compared to those who not only seem to be voracious readers but also have great information-retention faculties. There is the possibility that such types are just better spoofers than me, though.

Next on the list: Do I have a physical impairment or repetitive strain injury? Does a gentle but rather annoying years-long pain where my left leg meets my buttocks count? It is, I can say with certainty, a pain in the arse. Or in that general region anyway. I've been told by people who know more about these things than I do that it could be an issue with my piriformis. 'Sorry, you haven't been considered due to your poor piriformis.' Story of my life.

How about a speech impairment? I do sometimes struggle to find the right words, which can be, um, what's the word . . . Frustrating?

I also regularly pronounce words incorrectly, although the English language does allow a little more wriggle room in this regard compared to my now second tongue of Spanish. I believe, however, that the Spanish world should make more of an effort to accommodate my accent and pronunciation. Come on, if Chilean Spanish is acceptable, then Wrong Way Corrigan Spanish should be more widely tolerated.

So with all these, it would be nice if the BBC's job portal allowed one to give more thorough responses. We are talking about a corporation that has its celebrated Verify fact-checking service after all. The BBC, of all media groups, should know that a question can rarely be properly answered with a simple yes or no.

I look forward to pointing this out in person when I get shortlisted for an interview for this Chief Presenter position.
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Sunday, 26 July 2026

Letter to the editor: Trump truths

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My latest letter to the editor, published in the Sunday Independent, 26 July 2026. See photo below or read it at https://www.independent.ie/comment/letters/letters-youd-have-to-pity-the-cows-if-mayo-win-today/a/159172990.html.

It was the editor's decision to publish that the letter, nay email, came from Bogotá rather than Lisacul, Co. Roscommon — from where it did actually originate. I gave her the option, in fairness!

As for the theme, if only we could have have more honest politicians. If only.


Image is a photo of Brendan Corrigan's letter in the Sunday Independent, 26 July 2026
President Donald Trump: He doesn't always do what he says, but he's often truer to his word than many other politicians. 

Thursday, 23 July 2026

Little joy from the west of Ireland's summer sun

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'The summer sun was sinking low
Behind the western sea
The lark's loud song was pealing sweet
But it brought no joy to me.'


Picture shows the sun setting in Lisacul, Co. Roscommon, Ireland.
A brighter future lies just over the horizon. It's hard to reach, though.

So go the opening lyrics to the Irish ballad, The Woodlands of Loughglynn.

It was a favourite of my late Uncle Jackie's. I suspect one reason why he liked it so much is that Loughglynn is a neighbouring village to his — and my — birthplace, Lisacul, with the latter in the parish of the former. So for a man who lived most of his life in England, the song probably made him feel that bit closer to his west of Ireland origins.

Lamenting the death of Irish rebels fighting British colonial forces in the War of Independence, the song's tone is understandably melancholic.

Farm friendly

As I write these words just a few miles from those same Loughglynn woodlands, watching the summer sun sinking low — and slowly — with the sweet song of various birds for background music, the tranquil scene brings little joy to me, if not quite no joy.

This is not, thankfully, because I'm mourning lost comrades in arms. It has more to do with my reminiscing about what were more hopeful bygone times.

For despite all I've done and seen over the last 20 years, returning to where I grew up, the land where I dreamt of a fabulous future, leads me to dwell on all that I haven't yet achieved, and perhaps never will.

Such feelings are even more pronounced when I find myself engaged in the same tasks on the family farm that I carried out in those days when I was dreaming big. What has me back in this scenario is a sense of filial duty together with some gentle persuasion from an exiled elder sibling to lend a hand in his stead.

'There's a certain novelty in returning to the mid-summer chores after a long absence, but being a farmhand indefinitely?'

The various farming tasks themselves aren't the problem; some of them I enjoy, specifically those that I can do on my own, that is to say when I'm not taking direct orders from my 'you're doing it wrong' octogenarian father! The real roots of my melancholic mood in this environment are due to my own uncertainty. Or, to put a more positive spin on it, my employment flexibility and relative independence.

Climate change

Now, this uncertainty is independent of place — I very much have it in my adopted country of Colombia, too. However, it seems more manageable, more tolerable there. There's also the feeling that my life in Colombia seems rather surreal, as I've explained here before. Ireland provides something of a reality check: there are those unwanted 'What do you do in Colombia?' questions, for one. 'Various things' tends not to satisfy the inquisitors. Come on, just ask me about Colombia's climate; I can deal with that one more easily.

Mentioning climate, or more specifically weather, my first July in Ireland in 16 years has, fortunately, coincided with a long dry and fairly warm spell. I certainly wasn't expecting to be basking in the west of Ireland's summer sun. It's usually buried behind thick, cantankerous cloud.

Indeed, as something of a sun worshipper, were Ireland like this most of the time — mid-20s in degrees Celsius with the long daylight hours and not a mosquito in sight (the cumbersome horsefly's bloodsucking attempts are easily thwarted) — I'd almost be tempted back to live here. Almost.

Yet, I know only too well what the standard is. Navigating the colder, darker seasons is one negative; the usual inglorious summer weather another. And then there's the what-would-I-do-in-Ireland question.

Lending a helping hand on the family farm isn't a long-term solution. Nor would I want it to be. Yes, there's a certain novelty in returning to the mid-summer chores after a long absence, but being a farmhand indefinitely? The thought of that brings little joy to me.
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Friday, 12 June 2026

Mingling with Colombia's killers

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'You know, I'm a paraco now.'

That's what a 25-year-old acquaintance, let's call him Juan — not his real name — told me when I was reunited with him in March of this year in Santandercito, the barrio in the far north of Bogotá in which I normally reside whenever I'm in Colombia's capital.

Image shows the letters AGC, the initials for Colombia's largest paramilitary group, painted on the wall of a barrio building.
AGC presente: Autodefensas Gaitanistas de Colombia, aka Clan del Golfo, is Colombia's largest paramilitary group. 

Pawn of the paracos

Juan offered this information to me after I told him that I'd just spent the last few months in San Martín, Meta, an area said to be largely controlled by paracos.

These paracos, Colombia's paramilitaries, originally came into being in the 1960s as a counterpoint to the guerrillas. Both groups can trace their origins to left versus right political ideologies, nominally at least, but today they're all just effectively gangland criminals vying to control the cocaine trade and other illegal activities.

Just over eight weeks after Juan — whom I'd known since 2016 when he was a happy-go-lucky teenager — told me of his employment, he was shot dead. It was a planned hit. Loved ones left behind include an inconsolable mother, a shattered stepfather, and heartbroken brothers, people with whom I have shared many enjoyable moments in Santandercito over the last ten years.

Neither Juan's telling me that he was a paraco nor his tragic demise surprised me much, however.

I'd suspected for the last few years that he was involved in dodgy dealings of some sort.

In fact, he and another young man and friend-of-sorts of mine from the barrio, a guy I'll call José — again, not his real name — were sent away for a few months to a paraco training camp in the Antioquia department some time back. So the story goes. I did ask both of them, separately, to divulge a little more information about this camp, but it was never forthcoming. Although José didn't completely rule out doing so. I stopped asking after a while, though.

'A paraco he may have been, but he was no more than a pawn for greater powers. He was certainly no capo dei capi, that much is now clear.'

On their return to Barrio Santandercito, I noticed Juan's behaviour change. A harder, meaner edge came to replace the cheerfulness he had previously displayed in abundance. José, in contrast, has remained largely easygoing. He is that way towards me anyway.

Juan began to give off an air of invincibility. The way he strutted around the barrio was as if he thought he were a feared mafia boss. Now, a paraco he may have been, but he was no more than a pawn for greater powers. He was certainly no capo dei capi, that much is now clear.

In a journal entry the day after Juan told me of his paraco status, I noted that ill winds could soon be blowing his way, owing to his cocky behaviour. Only those truly in control could get away with such posturing. But even the bigwigs are brought back down to size at some stage.

Those ill winds did blow Juan's way. And with fatal force.

José was with Juan on the night he was shot dead, Friday 29 May, on a footpath on Calle 188 with Carrera 16, in the Verbenal barrio of Bogotá, just a few blocks away from Santandercito. José wasn't harmed, not physically anyway.

Mowing down Mauricio

On the day of Juan's burial, I was told by a somewhat reliable source in Santandercito that both Juan and José were the ones sent to kill another acquaintance of mine in this part of Bogotá, the affable Mauricio, a man who ran a number of tienda bars in Verbenal. Mauricio was murdered in April 2025.

His crime, so it goes, was to sell cocaine, which he got from his own sources. That is to say, he didn't get his white powder from the gang that is said to control the underworld in the greater Verbenal area.

My Santandercito source told me that Juan, recognised as a talented motorbike operator, rode the bike used to take José to Mauricio. José, as the better marksman, fired the weapon. That's the conjecture doing the rounds in the barrio. We'll probably never know for sure. And it's something I'm not too keen to ask José about, not directly anyway.

The cost of crime

Over the last few years, I had heard that José regularly got on the wrong side of some of his superiors. At one stage, he was apparently forbidden from entering Santandercito. If somebody had said to me two years ago that just one of either Juan or José would be soon gunned down, I would have thought that José would face that fate. Although, as I mentioned, Juan's behaviour in recent months would have led me to change my thinking.

Seeing as how José was with Juan on the night of his murder, in a location seen as close to ideal to carry out such a hit, there is speculation that José had some part to play in it. That he sold out his partner in crime to protect himself. Again, it's all hearsay.

The chances of us ever finding out exactly what happened on the night Juan was gunned down are slim.

It's unlikely there'll be any thorough investigation carried out. The general approach by Colombia's authorities when it comes to gangland murders is that as long as they're killing each other, then it's not a major concern. That's how it appears, anyway. 'Let them knock themselves out.'

The old adage that crime doesn't pay was certainly the case for Juan. The ones who do make big bucks out of criminality in Colombia tend not to get their hands bloodied and are fairly well protected. The paraco pawns, on the other hand, are very much dispensable.
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Thursday, 4 June 2026

Captivated by Colombia's magical (sur)realism

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'So, what do you do?'

It is one of the most popular break-the-ice questions adults get asked. We tend to be, after all, defined by our careers. And for many people, replying to such an enquiry is fairly straightforward. Others, myself included, find it more difficult, nay uncomfortable, to answer.

Image shows Brendan Corrigan in costume as the character Padrón from the series Los 39.
Colombia: Is this the real life? Is this just fantasy?
I do, of course, do various things, but the often unstated ending part to the what-do-you-do question is 'to make a living'. In other words, what is it you do that provides you with an income, allowing you to socialise and travel and whatnot? These days, the most accurate, succinct retort I can give is, somewhat shamefully, 'practically nothing'. Or, somewhat more positively, if misleading, 'I'm in early retirement.'

All an act

This is not to say that I haven't earned money from services rendered of late, yet the truth is that the amount in question, specifically over the last two years, is barely worth mentioning. The bulk of the paid work during that period came from acting projects, but I certainly can't call myself an actor.

Well, I can call myself an actor — I have acted, for payment, in multiple productions, after all — but to say that acting is what I do, that it's my career, would be a bit disingenuous.

Calling myself an actor would be like a guy who plays five-a-side football with his mates a few times a year calling himself a footballer.

Now, I may have thespian talent — I guess the audience, viewers and, more importantly, casting directors, production companies, and critics would be the judge of that — but I'm not exactly going out of my way to look for the leading role.

'I calculate that I may, with some luck along the way, reach the Google AdSense payment threshold of 70 euros by the year 2036.'

My acting career, if you allow me to call it thus for the moment, has been less active and more passive. I've been very much following the don't-call-us-we'll-call-you approach. I'm not too sure who I should call, in any case, in a bid to advance. Hollywood, you know where to find me.

Blogging, writing if you will, is another one of my pursuits that technically has been earning me money, and on a more regular basis than acting. However, I calculate that I may, with some luck along the way, reach the Google AdSense payment threshold of 70 euros by the year 2036. That's if the payment threshold doesn't increase. Exciting, if nervous, times ahead.

Much ado about doing nothing

So, effectively, I haven't really done much to earn money throughout these past two years. What I have been doing is keeping my costs down, largely thanks to house-sitting for a good portion of 2025 and a small part of 2024; rent, after all, is usually my biggest monthly expense. I've also been practising fairly minimalist living, something that I've become pretty adept at during my time in Colombia.

I do have savings, too, steadily decreasing as they are, yet enough, in a Colombian-peso context, where I don't have to go smashing that glass that should only be broken during an emergency. I haven't yet been forced to accept any old type of gainful employment merely to make ends meet. I still have some wriggle room.

It's this avoidance of the rat race, of being compelled to march full-time to somebody else's beat, that's one of the main reasons keeping me in Colombia.

I've been able to live a more independent life here compared to what I most likely would have to live in a high-income nation. Indeed, at times it feels a little surreal, although this isn't always in a positive sense. Nonetheless, as much as I am concerned about my future, I can't say it unduly stresses me out. But maybe I'm being a bit too sanguine about my current lot.

After all, this independence, my minimalist version of it anyway, does come at a price, as I explained on these pages back in 2021.

And to state what should be obvious, my present approach is unsustainable. I can't continue to spend more than I earn, unless I die inside a couple of years or so. Or win the lottery that I never play.

So, what do I do? I'll have to conjure up something soon to justify my continued presence in Colombia's magical (sur)realism.
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Thursday, 14 May 2026

A surprising side to Bogotá's boisterous Barrio Santandercito

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Of all the ways I could describe — and have described — my preferred Bogotá barrio, Santandercito, quiet is not the first word that comes to mind.

A rooftop view of Carrera 16, the main entrance into the northern Bogotá barrio of Santandercito.
Silent Santandercito: Well, not quite. But it does have a quieter side.
Boisterous and bustling. Yes. Tame and tranquil. No. It is, after all, a small and rather densely populated sector of a massive metropolis in a country where the locals' overall attitude to excessive noise levels appears indifferent at best, welcoming at worst.

When an individual or group in a private dwelling decides to listen to an arrangement of noises that, amongst some cohorts, is considered music and therefore enjoyable, this tends to come with a belief that the whole barrio wants to hear it. Thus, it is played to eardrum-damaging levels. One might see it as deadbeats banging out ludicrously loud beats, but I wouldn't go that far.

Now, as a somewhat sheltered cul-de-sac barrio, Santandercito is spared the regular roars from passing vehicular traffic. Yet, the motor vehicles that do enter its environs frequently do their best to make up for this absence. Exhaust sounds that range from booming to screeching are heard more frequently than one would like — which, admittedly, is never. Indeed, I can't understand how anyone tolerates such a racket.

'Experience of similar terrain and raucous raiders told me to prepare myself for something akin to Russia's current war against Ukraine. A stalemate.'

A tad more tolerable are the occasional wandering salespeople and scrap-metal collectors who ensure they are heard well before they are seen, thanks to the pumping out of a recording describing their services, usually supplemented with some cheesy tunes. At least these guys are working.

With such cacophonies, finding a quiet corner in the barrio is next to impossible. The single-course, hollow-brick walls in these parts are, after all, thin. Sounds tend to run through them with impunity. The same goes for the single-glazed, generously permeable windows.

Cacophony conflict

So it was with some trepidation that I willingly put myself into direct conflict with all this barrio noise. Before combat, my fanciful hopes were that it might be like the Anglo-Zanzibar War of 1896 — a 38-minute affair — with me victorious, of course. After all, I had been reconnoitring the battle zone weeks in advance and figured I could sweep to success. Yet, previous experience of similar terrain and raucous raiders told me to prepare myself for something akin to Russia's current war against Ukraine. A protracted stalemate.

As it transpired, it was practically a rout. Well, it wasn't quite as swift as the Brits in Zanzibar; it was about three times as long, but I simply couldn't complete my objective any sooner.

Advanced planning told me that Operation Record Quotes and Notes on James Boswell's Life of Samuel Johnson would need to be tackled from three fronts, a trio of attacks that would last, in the best-case scenario, roughly 30 minutes each. Quite amazingly, it went more or less to plan. The audio-blog-recording battlefield provided very little resistance in terms of a dreaded, damaging noise assault.

Yes, to my pleasant surprise, the room I occupy in my current abode proved to be a dependable recording studio for a project with close to two hours of script. I had been expecting constant interruptions from all the aforementioned noises. In San Martín, for example, just to record a mere five-minute audio blog, I regularly needed double that time.

Silent surprise

So how is it that this spot in a regularly boisterous barrio is something of a serene sanctuary?

It certainly helps that it's a room on the second floor (first floor for the Brits and Irish) of an apartment that is isolated from the main street.

However, it's not completely closed off from the outside. It has windows, my room included, looking out onto the open square space that is a common feature in Colombian apartment buildings.

This space, about two square metres in size, is for service pipes and suchlike, apparently. It often doubles up as a rubbish-collection spot, too. Various items that escape from the windows of the apartments above find a resting place on the plastic roof covering the first floor — or ground floor, if you prefer.

'It is a lively and regularly noisy spot, but this noise doesn't seem to be as pervasive as I had previously thought.'

Despite that, I'm glad of the space because it lets natural light into my room. I couldn't stay for any length of time in a room that gets no natural light. I find such rooms utterly depressing. Incredulously, some Colombians seem to prefer them.

Anyway, these welcome light-giving windows provide no real barrier to sound.

So that I managed to record in relative silence — a small bit of background noise doesn't tend to be picked up by my microphone — is rather surprising.

To repeat, the apartment's setting is a help. The barrio noises clearly don't travel as easily as I had thought or expected them to. I was also lucky with my timing.

On the three occasions that I recorded these lengthy scripts, the neighbours on the floor above were silent. This isn't a rarity, but it's not that usual either. Oftentimes, they're listening to Christian music at levels that are a little too high for my liking. Perhaps they're trying to send me a message? The good Lord is, literally, speaking to me from above.

Excessive dog barking, from both within the building and outside, was also absent during my recording sessions. Again, quite unusual that.

That there weren't downpours also worked to my advantage. Although the sound of heavy rain falling on the plastic roof next to my bedroom might have proved an attractive background track to my voice. Most likely, though, it would have drowned me out. How terrible that would be!

This whole lack-of-excessive-noise experience has led me to reappraise my perception of Barrio Santandercito. For sure, it is a lively and regularly noisy spot, but this noise doesn't seem to be as pervasive as I had previously thought. Equally as important, however, is the somewhat isolated, insulated nature of my lodgings: a serene sanctuary, of sorts, from Santandercito's unsolicited sounds.
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Thursday, 30 April 2026

Quotes and notes on James Boswell's Life of Samuel Johnson: Part III

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This is the concluding instalment of what has been my highlights package of James Boswell's biography of the eighteenth-century giant of English literature, Dr Samuel Johnson.
Image shows the individual portraits of Dr Samuel Johnson and his biography James Boswell fused together.
'Johnson is dead. Let us go to the next best. There is nobody; no man can be said to put you in mind of Johnson.'

For an audio version of this text, replete with my questionable attempts to mimic both Boswell and Johnson, visit https://youtu.be/E9Oks7jZeZs

In the year 1779

‘[I] would rather be attacked than unnoticed. For the worst thing you can do to an authour is to be silent as to his works. An assault upon a town is a bad thing; but starving it is still worse; an assault may be unsuccessful; you may have more men killed than you kill; but if you starve the town, you are sure of victory.'
A version of 'The only thing worse than being talked about is not being talked about’. That, and the idea that indifference is worse than hatred.

‘[B]randy will do soonest for a man what drinking CAN do for him. There are, indeed, few who are able to drink brandy. That is a power rather to be wished for than attained. And yet, (proceeded he,) as in all pleasure hope is a considerable part, I know not but fruition comes too quick by brandy.’
It's why I prefer to drink beer. I pass my alcohol limits too soon with spirits, often with disastrous results.

'He is YOUNG, my Lord; (looking to his Lordship with an arch smile,) all BOYS love liberty, till experience convinces them they are not so fit to govern themselves as they imagined. We are all agreed as to our own liberty; we would have as much of it as we can get; but we are not agreed as to the liberty of others: for in proportion as we take, others must lose. I believe we hardly wish that the mob should have liberty to govern us. When that was the case some time ago, no man was at liberty not to have candles in his windows.'
'Freedom for me. Restraint for others!' Total freedom, of course and as I've written about before, is an impossibility.

‘A particular kind of manufacture fails: those who have been used to work at it, can, for some time, work at nothing else. You meet a man begging; you charge him with idleness: he says, "I am willing to labour. Will you give me work?"—"I cannot."—"Why, then you have no right to charge me with idleness."'
Kind of explains my current predicament. Kind of! I've no problem working, if I can find the right work!

'Aliis laetus, sapiens sibi' ('cheerful for others, wise for himself').
'You may be wise in your study in the morning, and gay in company at a tavern in the evening. Every man is to take care of his own wisdom and his own virtue, without minding too much what others think.’
I could do better on the first part of that. Indeed, I could do better on both aspects!

He, I know not why, shewed upon all occasions an aversion to go to Ireland, where I proposed to him that we should make a tour. JOHNSON. 'It is the last place where I should wish to travel.' BOSWELL. 'Should you not like to see Dublin, Sir?' JOHNSON. 'No, Sir! Dublin is only a worse capital.' BOSWELL. 'Is not the Giant's-Causeway worth seeing?' JOHNSON. 'Worth seeing? yes; but not worth going to see.'
Yet he had a kindness for the Irish nation, and thus generously expressed himself to a gentleman from that country, on the subject of an UNION which artful Politicians have often had in view—'Do not make an union with us, Sir. We should unite with you, only to rob you. We should have robbed the Scotch, if they had had any thing of which we could have robbed them.'
Johnson knew what a union would entail!

'Everything about his character and manners was forcible and violent; there never was any moderation; many a day did he fast, many a year did he refrain from wine; but when he did eat, it was voraciously; when he did drink wine, it was copiously. He could practise abstinence, but not temperance.'


'The Ambassadour says well—His Excellency observes—' And then he expanded and enriched the little that had been said, in so strong a manner, that it appeared something of consequence. This was exceedingly entertaining to the company who were present, and many a time afterwards it furnished a pleasant topick of merriment: 'The Ambassadour says well,' became a laughable term of applause, when no mighty matter had been expressed.
The opposite, in a way, to my father’s understated use of ‘very good’ for something that was quite noteworthy.

‘Surely I shall not spend my whole life with my own total disapprobation.’
Johnson wrote this on the day of his seventy-second birthday in 1780. I can relate to the sentiments.

He would allow no settled indulgence of idleness upon principle, and always repelled every attempt to urge excuses for it. A friend one day suggested, that it was not wholesome to study soon after dinner. JOHNSON: "Ah, Sir, don't give way to such a fancy. At one time of my life I had taken it into my head that it was not wholesome to study between breakfast and dinner."
One can always find an excuse not to do something!

‘A Frenchman must be always talking, whether he knows any thing of the matter or not; an Englishman is content to say nothing, when he has nothing to say.’
'You say it best, when you say nothing at all.'

‘Nil te quaesiveris extra.’
'Stretch your arm no further than your sleeve will reach.' Johnson said this to Goldsmith in relation to his modest accommodation at the time. It was said in a reassuring way.

Of Dr. Goldsmith he said, 'No man was more foolish when he had not a pen in his hand, or more wise when he had.'
I guess this can be viewed as advice for one to stick to his area of expertise/talents.

1781, aged 72

In 1781 Johnson at last completed his Lives of the Poets, of which he gives this account: 'Some time in March I finished the Lives of the Poets, which I wrote in my usual way, dilatorily and hastily, unwilling to work, and working with vigour and haste.' In a memorandum previous to this, he says of them: 'Written, I hope, in such a manner as may tend to the promotion of piety.'
The inspiration comes in fits and starts.

Every thing about his character and manners was forcible and violent; there never was any moderation; many a day did he fast, many a year did he refrain from wine; but when he did eat, it was voraciously; when he did drink wine, it was copiously. He could practise abstinence, but not temperance.
When he went at it, he went at it! One knows a character or two who fit that mould.

I mentioned his scale of liquors;—claret for boys,—port for men,—brandy for heroes. 'Then (said Mr. Burke,) let me have claret: I love to be a boy; to have the careless gaiety of boyish days.' JOHNSON. 'I should drink claret too, if it would give me that; but it does not: it neither makes boys men, nor men boys. You'll be drowned by it, before it has any effect upon you.'
Careful, there, Edmund! I get the sentiment, though. What one would give to go back to one's younger days.

This [asking Johnson a risky question] was risking a good deal, and required the boldness of a General of Irish Volunteers to make the attempt.
The fighting Irish, eh?

‘[W]henever there is exaggerated praise, every body is set against a character. They are provoked to attack it.’
Like when people say how *amazing* Colombia — or anything, for that matter — is, I feel compelled to counter. Everything has its faults!

‘[A] man does not love to go to a place from whence he comes out exactly as he went in.’
Oftentimes I wish I could leave a tienda bar in the same state that I entered it!

‘Lectures were once useful; but now, when all can read, and books are so numerous, lectures are unnecessary. If your attention fails, and you miss a part of a lecture, it is lost; you cannot go back as you do upon a book.’
One may need guidance, all the same. I guess that's the idea of tutorials: do the assigned readings, then discuss them with fellow students and a tutor.

I [Boswell] was not a little amused by observing Allen perpetually struggling to talk in the manner of Johnson, like the little frog in the fable blowing himself up to resemble the stately ox.
Don't try to be somebody you're not. Many of us could do with heeding that advice more regularly.

‘I love Blair's Sermons. Though the dog is a Scotchman, and a Presbyterian, and every thing he should not be, I was the first to praise them. Such was my candour,' (smiling.)
The great Dr Johnson indeed, admiring a man who was not only a Presbyterian, but a Scotsman to boot — and one whom he might like to boot!

WILKES. (naming a celebrated orator,) 'Amidst all the brilliancy of ———'s imagination, and the exuberance of his wit, there is a strange want of TASTE. It was observed of Apelles's Venus, that her flesh seemed as if she had been nourished by roses: his oratory would sometimes make one suspect that he eats potatoes and drinks whisky.'
Might John Wilkes have been referring to Edmund Burke, with the potatoes/whiskey jibe a little dig at the Irish?

‘Always, Sir, set a high value on spontaneous kindness. He whose inclination prompts him to cultivate your friendship of his own accord, will love you more than one whom you have been at pains to attach to you.’
These days, it seems too many expect to be up in the friendship deal. Or that might be just my cynicism of genuine friendship after years living in Colombia.

Mrs. Thrale justly and wittily accounted for such conduct by saying, that Johnson's conversation was by much too strong for a person accustomed to obsequiousness and flattery; it was mustard in a young child's mouth!
Johnson was certainly no yes-man. He may not always have been right, but he told it as he saw it, a characteristic that is sorely lacking amongst many in the public sphere these days.

Although upon most occasions I never heard a more strenuous advocate for the advantages of wealth, than Dr. Johnson: he this day, I know not from what caprice, took the other side. 'I have not observed (said he,) that men of very large fortunes enjoy any thing extraordinary that makes happiness.’
A certain amount of wealth can bring "happiness" i.e. enough to ensure that one isn't constantly worrying about paying for the basics. But, as has been said elsewhere, ‘The more one makes, the more one spends.’ Although some folk become even more parsimonious the more money they have!

‘Sir, a man may be so much of every thing, that he is nothing of any thing.’


Johnson's charity to the poor was uniform and extensive, both from inclination and principle. He not only bestowed liberally out of his own purse, but what is more difficult as well as rare, would beg from others, when he had proper objects in view. This he did judiciously as well as humanely. Mr. Philip Metcalfe tells me, that when he has asked him for some money for persons in distress, and Mr. Metcalfe has offered what Johnson thought too much, he insisted on taking less, saying, 'No, no, Sir; we must not PAMPER them.'
Enough to help those in distress, but don't go overboard. A hand up, rather than a handout.

In one of his little memorandum-books is the following minute:
August 9, 3 P.M., aetat. 72, in the summer-house at Streatham.
'My purpose is,
To pass eight hours every day in some serious employment.
Having prayed, I purpose to employ the next six weeks upon the Italian language, for my settled study.’
Keeping the mind occupied as one ages. It's important at any age, though.

‘[A] man may prefer the state of the country-gentleman upon the whole, and yet there may never be a moment when he is willing to make the change to quit London for it.’
I’m pretty sure if I had my own country estate, I wouldn't leave it to go and live in a big city. I'd visit and stay in the city for periods, for sure, but give up living in the country estate indefinitely, no!

‘Fox never talks in private company; not from any determination not to talk, but because he has not the first motion. A man who is used to the applause of the House of Commons, has no wish for that of a private company. A man accustomed to throw for a thousand pounds, if set down to throw for sixpence, would not be at the pains to count his dice. Burke's talk is the ebullition of his mind; he does not talk from a desire of distinction, but because his mind is full.’
So, according to Johnson, Burke spoke out of passion, Fox only when it was likely to win him favour. The wily Fox, perhaps!

‘A man cannot make a bad use of his money, so far as regards Society, if he does not hoard it; for if he either spends it or lends it out, Society has the benefit. It is in general better to spend money than to give it away; for industry is more promoted by spending money than by giving it away. A man who spends his money is sure he is doing good with it: he is not so sure when he gives it away. A man who spends ten thousand a year will do more good than a man who spends two thousand and gives away eight.’
One does need to keep a little in reserve all the same. How much is “a little” is very much open to interpretation, however!

‘Sir, a man may be so much of every thing, that he is nothing of any thing.’
‘A jack of all trades, a master of none.’ Or, ‘A jack of all trades is a master of none, but oftentimes better than master of one.’ A versatile factotum has his value. Yet, there is a risk where you can do many things fairly well but don't properly focus on any one of them.

‘Nec sufferre queat majoris pondera gemmae.’
‘Nor can it bear the weight of a greater gem.’ Said in reply to Boswell's comment that narrow-minded folk would be satisfied with a simple piece of jewellery rather than a great diamond. I get the metaphor, but in terms of actual materialism, I am more of a minimalist. To refer to an earlier comment of Johnson's, 'Stretch your arm no further than your sleeve will reach.’

‘A man should pass a part of his time with THE LAUGHERS, by which means any thing ridiculous or particular about him might be presented to his view, and corrected.’
Yes, we should all be able to take a bit of mocking, within reason.

‘Ah, Dr. Johnson [asked a Scotsman], what would you have said of Buchanan, had he been an Englishman?' 'Why, Sir, (said Johnson, after a little pause,) I should NOT have said of Buchanan, had he been an ENGLISHMAN, what I will now say of him as a SCOTCHMAN,—that he was the only man of genius his country ever produced.’

He disapproved of parentheses; and I believe in all his voluminous writings, not half a dozen of them will be found.

[T]here lurked about him a propensity to paultry saving. One day I owned to him that 'I was occasionally troubled with a fit of NARROWNESS.' 'Why, Sir, (said he,) so am I. BUT I DO NOT TELL IT.' He has now and then borrowed a shilling of me; and when I asked for it again, seemed to be rather out of humour. A droll little circumstance once occurred: as if he meant to reprimand my minute exactness as a creditor, he thus addressed me;—'Boswell, LEND me sixpence—NOT TO BE REPAID.’
I wouldn't have been inclined to lend him money, so!

‘Sir, there is no settling the point of precedency between a louse and a flea.’
The louse and the flea might argue the toss, though! Leave them at it!

‘Gravina, an Italian critick, observes, that every man desires to see that of which he has read; but no man desires to read an account of what he has seen: so much does description fall short of reality. Description only excites curiosity: seeing satisfies it.’
I would add that few people like to read an account of a subject they think they know well, which may be an impediment. For example, I often find it difficult to read, listen to or watch material on Colombia.

‘People in general do not willingly read, if they can have any thing else to amuse them. There must be an external impulse; emulation, or vanity, or avarice. The progress which the understanding makes through a book, has more pain than pleasure in it. Language is scanty, and inadequate to express the nice gradations and mixtures of our feelings. No man reads a book of science from pure inclination. The books that we do read with pleasure are light compositions, which contain a quick succession of events.'
For sure, one often has to force oneself to read. I do, anyway! Now, I do have a desire to read more, but I am easily distracted from doing so.

'A lady will take Jonathan Wild as readily as St. Austin, if he has threepence more; and, what is worse, her parents will give her to him.'


‘[C]lear your MIND of cant . . . You may say, "These are bad times; it is a melancholy thing to be reserved to such times." You don't mind the times. You tell a man, "I am sorry you had such bad weather the last day of your journey, and were so much wet." You don't care six-pence whether he is wet or dry. You may TALK in this manner; it is a mode of talking in Society: but don't THINK foolishly.’
Quite. Even when we ask somebody how they are, most if not all of the time we don't really care how they are!

‘I would rather trust my money to a man who has no hands, and so a physical impossibility to steal, than to a man of the most honest principles.’
In other words, you can never truly trust people. Nobody is completely virtuous.

‘Get as much force of mind as you can. Live within your income. Always have something saved at the end of the year. Let your imports be more than your exports, and you'll never go far wrong.’
Nothing revelatory in this, but it's good to know he said it.

In a letter to Edmund Allen:
‘It has pleased GOD, this morning, to deprive me of the powers of speech; and as I do not know but that it may be his further good pleasure to deprive me soon of my senses.’
Good old god works in mysterious ways, for sure!

‘As I know more of mankind I expect less of them, and am ready now to call a man A GOOD MAN, upon easier terms than I was formerly.’
One’s expectations become lower as one ages. I guess it's happening to me, too.

[T]o Mr. Kemble, he said, 'Are you, Sir, one of those enthusiasts who believe yourself transformed into the very character you represent?' Upon Mr. Kemble's answering that he had never felt so strong a persuasion himself; 'To be sure not, Sir, (said Johnson;) the thing is impossible. And if Garrick really believed himself to be that monster, Richard the Third, he deserved to be hanged every time he performed it.’
It could be said we're always playing a character, even when we're *being* ourselves. Or is it just me who thinks so?!

‘[C]ondolences and consolations are such common and such useless things, that the omission of them is no great crime: and my own diseases occupy my mind, and engage my care.’
I tend to agree about condolences and consolations, although sometimes it is nice to know that somebody does care, even if just superficially. Another great English writer, but one of more recent vintage and who liked America, Christopher Hitchens, in his memoir Hitch-22, endorses the idea of sending condolences.

1784, aged 75

'There is no arguing with Johnson; for if his pistol misses fire, he knocks you down with the butt end of it.’
Those were Goldsmith’s words. Of course, this isn't to say that Johnson was always right, although he often was, he was just difficult to argue against!

‘Sir, he [Mr Langton] brought me a sheet of paper, on which he had written down several texts of Scripture, recommending christian charity. And when I questioned him what occasion I had given for such an animadversion, all that he could say amounted to this,—that I sometimes contradicted people in conversation. Now what harm does it do to any man to be contradicted?' BOSWELL. 'I suppose he meant the MANNER of doing it; roughly,—and harshly.' JOHNSON. 'And who is the worse for that?' BOSWELL. 'It hurts people of weak nerves.' JOHNSON. 'I know no such weak-nerved people.' Mr. Burke, to whom I related this conference, said, 'It is well, if when a man comes to die, he has nothing heavier upon his conscience than having been a little rough in conversation.’
Hear, hear Mr Burke!

'I think I am like Squire Richard in The Journey to London, "I'm never strange in a strange place."' He was truly SOCIAL. He strongly censured what is much too common in England among persons of condition,—maintaining an absolute silence, when unknown to each other; as for instance, when occasionally brought together in a room before the master or mistress of the house has appeared. 'Sir, that is being so uncivilised as not to understand the common rights of humanity.’
We could say that Johnson was more Irish than stiff-upper-lip English in this sense!

‘[T]he greatest profligate will be as well received as the man of the greatest virtue, and this by a very good woman, by a woman who says her prayers three times a day . . . No, no, a lady will take Jonathan Wild as readily as St. Austin, if he has threepence more; and, what is worse, her parents will give her to him. Women have a perpetual envy of our vices; they are less vicious than we, not from choice, but because we restrict them; they are the slaves of order and fashion; their virtue is of more consequence to us than our own, so far as concerns this world.’
And once they were *freed*, they readily embraced our vices! I've touched on many of the points Johnson raises here. See, for example, The wages of loveA prostitute by any other name, and Dealing with a sexed-up society.

‘You put me in mind of Dr. Barrowby, the physician, who was very fond of swine's flesh. One day, when he was eating it, he said, "I wish I was a Jew." "Why so? (said somebody;) the Jews are not allowed to eat your favourite meat." "Because, (said he,) I should then have the gust of eating it, with the pleasure of sinning."’
The hellishly good forbidden fruit.

I had the resolution to ask Johnson whether he thought that the roughness of his manner had been an advantage or not, and if he would not have done more good if he had been more gentle. I proceeded to answer myself thus: 'Perhaps it has been of advantage, as it has given weight to what you said: you could not, perhaps, have talked with such authority without it.' JOHNSON. 'No, Sir; I have done more good as I am. Obscenity and Impiety have always been repressed in my company.' BOSWELL. 'True, Sir; and that is more than can be said of every Bishop. Greater liberties have been taken in the presence of a Bishop, though a very good man, from his being milder, and therefore not commanding such awe. Yet, Sir, many people who might have been benefited by your conversation, have been frightened away. A worthy friend of ours has told me, that he has often been afraid to talk to you.' JOHNSON. 'Sir, he need not have been afraid, if he had any thing rational to say. If he had not, it was better he did not talk.’
We are who we are. I can be quite fiery, impatient, but if I wasn't, I wouldn't be me. Has my temperament been a net benefit for me? That's hard to know. And yes, we can always try to be better, where we feel it's needed.

‘I will be conquered; I will not capitulate.’


‘We have more respect for a man who robs boldly on the highway, than for a fellow who jumps out of a ditch, and knocks you down behind your back. Courage is a quality so necessary for maintaining virtue, that it is always respected, even when it is associated with vice.’
Quite. Down with those sneaky, pernicious, two-faced cowards.

‘That he [God] is infinitely good, as far as the perfection of his nature will allow, I certainly believe; but it is necessary for good upon the whole, that individuals should be punished. As to an INDIVIDUAL, therefore, he is not infinitely good; and as I cannot be SURE that I have fulfilled the conditions on which salvation is granted, I am afraid I may be one of those who shall be damned.’
If Johnson has been sent to hell, then I shall certainly be there. Maybe I already am there!

[W]e passed to discourse of life, whether it was upon the whole more happy or miserable. Johnson was decidedly for the balance of misery: in confirmation of which I maintained, that no man would choose to lead over again the life which he had experienced. Johnson acceded to that opinion in the strongest terms.
I concur. Life is a sea of mediocrity, if not quite misery, which receives an occasional shower of joy. These freshwater rains soon match the composition of the salty sea, however.

‘[N]o man is a hypocrite in his pleasures.’
Said in reply to Joshua Reynolds in relation to ‘taking the altitude’ of a man’s tastes.

The difference, he observed, between a well-bred and an ill-bred man is this: 'One immediately attracts your liking, the other your aversion. You love the one till you find reason to hate him; you hate the other till you find reason to love him.'
I think most decent people tend to like me, until I give them a reason not to!

[H]e had no taste for painting.
Said Boswell. That makes two of us! Well, I'm certainly not a painting fanatic! Later, in reply to Boswell's remark about the inferiority of painting to poetry, Johnson said, ‘Painting, Sir, can illustrate, but cannot inform.’

‘This is taking prodigious pains about a man.'
'O! Sir, (said I, with most sincere affection,) your friends would do every thing for you.' He paused, grew more and more agitated, till tears started into his eyes, and he exclaimed with fervent emotion, 'GOD bless you all.' I was so affected that I also shed tears. After a short silence, he renewed and extended his grateful benediction, 'GOD bless you all, for JESUS CHRIST'S sake.' We both remained for some time unable to speak. He rose suddenly and quitted the room, quite melted in tenderness.
Johnson's reaction on hearing that his friends had asked the government to pay for his planned trip to Italy for the coming winter.

'Sir, it is in the intellectual world as in the physical world; we are told by natural philosophers that a body is at rest in the place that is fit for it; they who are content to live in the country, are FIT for the country.’
Horses for courses, as the saying goes. I think I am fit for the country, or at least a country town as opposed to a sprawling metropolis.

‘I will be conquered; I will not capitulate.’
I, too, wish to leave the land of the living in this way. Go down fighting, with vigour.

It is strange, however, to think, that Johnson was not free from that general weakness of being averse to execute a will, so that he delayed it from time to time.
It's a task few of us seem eager to carry out.

Johnson, with that native fortitude, which, amidst all his bodily distress and mental sufferings, never forsook him, asked Dr. Brocklesby, as a man in whom he had confidence, to tell him plainly whether he could recover. 'Give me (said he,) a direct answer.' The Doctor having first asked him if he could hear the whole truth, which way soever it might lead, and being answered that he could, declared that, in his opinion, he could not recover without a miracle. 'Then, (said Johnson,) I will take no more physick, not even my opiates; for I have prayed that I may render up my soul to GOD unclouded.’
Principled and strong right to the end.

The book ends with these words, said by an unnamed acquaintance of Boswell's. I can think of no better way but to also end with them:
‘He has made a chasm, which not only nothing can fill up, but which nothing has a tendency to fill up. Johnson is dead. Let us go to the next best:—there is nobody; no man can be said to put you in mind of Johnson.’